the good, the bad and the scary!

It all happened on a Friday night in August. Ok so it was last night :) but it started out sounding good. I had the most wonderful evening last night. I think I was happier than I have ever been.

The GOOD:

Yesterday we went and registered my boys for school. It had been worrying me so much cuz it was so last minute. But now its done and it feels so good. Last night my boys met his boys for the first time. It was wonderful. They got along so well and they had so much fun. It was so fun to see them all together. It was like they had known each other for years - except they all got along! :)

The BAD:

Last night in the midst of my wonderful evening, I received a voicemail from my Doctor. I don't think I blogged about this before - but when I went for my follow up appointment Tuesday (for my ulcers) he felt that it wasn't my ulcers causing me all of my pain. He felt I had Gall Stones. So Wednesday I went in for an ultrasound. So back to my voicemail. He said I have Gall Stones and I have to have my Gall bladder removed. Worst timing ever - with move comping up. But Pierre said not to worry he would take care of it all and me. I love him so much. He is so absolutely amazing.

The SCARY:

It just really sank in that we will have FIVE boys. FIVE BOYS! What in the world am I going to do with FIVE BOYS?!!! It was our first night with them all last night and we "forgot" one twice. LOL. for just a sec of course - so now we are going to have to count. I realize there are people out there in this world that plan for five kids, or more and look at octomom - but for us.... its FIVE BOYS. *huge sigh* It will be fun. Maybe a little hairy at times and definitely scary. :)

Last night was the happiest night in my life. I love him so much and I love all of the boys. Now we are on our way to go fishing. I am in heaven.

bragging rights?

I don't like to brag, but today I am going to brag. I am so proud of both of my boys. They are both super smart, WAY handsome (imho) and they are both doing GREAT in sports.

Jonah made the ELITE soccer team this year. He had to try out and he made the team. For him that was a HUGE deal. To his momma that was a huge deal. He has gone through summer soccer camp and is now onto regular practice. He seems to be learning alot and enjoying himself. He looks so great out on the field.

What I really wanted to brag about today though is Noah. Noah is playing football again this year. This is year two for him. Last year he barely got any playing time in the games. Especially after he almost made a touchdown for the other team! :) He didn't put a lot of effort into it and didn't really try. He enjoyed himself - but he just didn't know nearly enough about the game.

I was a little concerned shoveling out over $200 for him to play this year if he was going to do the same thing. But I did it because I thought it would give him a chance to meet and make new friends before he started at a new school. So to me, that alone was worth it.

Before practices started, his coaches asked the parents to have the boys start conditioning. The first day was horrendous. There was threatening, begging, promising and crying (and that was just me, he was worse!) We had several talks about pushing yourself and yatta yatta. I found out on his fourth practice that he sat out during the entire practiced on the third day. I was very upset and frustrated. This time I had had it. So we sat down did a lot of talking and lecturing. I made sure that I have been at every practice at least part of it so he can't just sit out. BUT.... the other day he was scrimmaging with his team and he was in the game. He messed up and had to sit out the rest of the game. On the way home we were talking about it and he said that it was ok because he learned from it. That he was going to improve on his game and not make that mistake again. That was on Wednesday. On Thursday, we pulled into the parking lot and this was our conversation:

Noah: I don't really want to go to practice today but I am going.
Me: Yes you will be going Noah. You have to if you want to play in the game Sunday
Noah: I know Mom. I don't really want to go today cuz I don't feel good, but I want to give my 110% and push myself so I can play. Everytime I come to practice I am learning something new. Sometimes about the game and sometimes about me.
Me: (holding back the tears) Noah you are such a great kid and you make me so proud when I hear you say things like that. I love you so much.
Noah: love you too mom - gotta get to practice I am already late.
Me: LOL - getting going and show them what you are made of!

I was so so so proud of him. Maybe all of my talking was actually getting through to him! I left to take Jonah to soccer practice. And I went to buy Noah an UnderArmor shirt to reward him. When I got to Noah's practice they were scrimmaging against another team. Noah was in the game. I watched him and he tackled his kid each time and didn't let his kid go. When we got finished I was asking him how it went. He was so excited and so proud. He said he played in the entire scrimmage and is pretty sure he earned his spot in the starting line up for both offense and defense! He was so proud. I am so proud. He kept talking about what it was like pushing himself and that it made him feel good. What a great kid.

I am so proud of you Noah!

Love,
your mom.

almost ahhhhhh...

I am not going into lots of details with this but I just needed to say its almost over. All of my crazy running around, and all of my waiting games are almost over (well except for the annulment).

Right now, while I am still in between moving, I am traveling an hour each way to football and soccer practices 4 nights a week and on two nights they both practice and their fields are 15 min apart. So much fun. That is almost over. Almost over. Almost over. Ahhhhhh... Well they will still have the same practices but I won't be doing the commute anymore. Ahhhh...

Then I got more good news tonite that took a TON of weight off my shoulders. I can't even tell you how much. But it did. so Ahhhh... to that too! :)

So with all of that, my life has been a wreck for the past 7 years and the last two years I have been working really hard to straighten things out. It's all starting to come together. It really is. :)

Ahhhh........ I can breathe a little better tonite. :)